Acting Lacking

Acting Lacking. This is a military term used to describe a person who is in a job, but lacking the appropriate qualifications. And last night I told my honey this is what he has been doing in the job of step-dad to my son. We were in bed discussing our day, and I was telling him how I was frustrated with some of my little guy's behaviours. Like most nine year olds, mine has a tendency to do or say without thought. When he does that, I generally end up yelling at him for the result is often potentially dangerous or just darn right dumb. My honey, ever my white knight, offered to do some of the bellowing for me. This is where I kind of lost it. I told him straight up that as much as I would like for him to take some of that burden from me, I couldn’t have him do it because he and son-son don't have much of a relationship. If I yell at him, Brandon knows that I do so even though I love him and sometimes because I love him. If James yells at him, there is no real foundation there to temper the bad with good. It's all about balance and James just doesn't have much weight on either end of the scale. I think I sort of one-shotted my honey. I don't think he realized he wasn't being very dad-like. We talked some more and decided that we each need to spend more time with Brandon. So early this morning, James spoke with Brandon and asked if the two of them could start doing things together. Brandon was ecstatic! James asked if Brandon would like to learn about electronics because that's something that James is good at. Brandon jumped right on that train, asking if he could build a robot. Well a robot is a little advanced, but I believe before he's twelve we might have one :) I'm not sure what little man and I will do together, but I'm sure we'll come up with something.
As for my step 5, last night I came up with a two week meal plan of healthy meals and did my morning walk just a while ago. Healthy living here I come.